Unsung lullaby in Ipoh - Part 1

Dear oh dear,

Tell me something about Ipoh that you dislike. well,maybe one or two things. But despite that,you will forgot about it when you feel how melancholic and sentimental this city is. 

It was a last minute plan. Two days one night. Me, Ana and Fawa took our train from KL Sentral meanwhile Sap and Gie will waiting for us at Stesen KTM Ipoh. During our two hours ride, we took pictures and giggles. 

Gatai pungkoq duduk lama dalam train.

So we arrived. Took pictures. Sampai pintu masuk tutup and abang polis perli cakap "Hurm, lama sangat tangkap gambar tu," . Fine abang fine. 

Touchdown Ipoh!

You know why I always want to come here?

Because Yasmin Ahmad told me to do so. Let's not waste the time, we had a long day ahead. A lot of plans. A lot of moments need to be captured. 

First, we check in the Hotel Budget. I can't barely remember its name because they had bad customer service. but since we already here, so just bear with it. 

First stop, Restoran Nasi Vanggey!

Yong Suan was one of their branch actually. so worry not. You can choose either to come here or at Yong Suan. 

Not recommended for people on diet. Or vegetarian. Haha.

Mission 1 accomplished!. We decided to go to Ipoh town to find the Muzium Yasmin Ahmad. Unfortunately, we managed to find it after 4pm which is the place was closed already. 
We amused ourself with ais kepal and sending postcards to our house.

Purchase any postcards at Bits and Bobs and free delivery to your hometown! 

Writing to ourself in progress.

Orang Ipoh katanya.hurm.

Some of the postcards that available in Bits and Bobs.

We found our target hipster cafes here at Plan B. Plan B restaurant was surrounded by 3 or 4 new cafes, wall street arts, and handcraft shops. It turns out that Burps  and Giggles, Missing Marbles and Buku Tiga Lima are under the same roof. They are also selling handcrafts and accessories. 

Inside Burps and Giggles 

You should try their pumpkin cake! 

How they decorate their cafe.

The exotic mural inside Burps and Giggles.

Us with our full stomach.

We walked throughout the area and find some other street arts that cute and unique.

Trying to search for Tasik Cermin location,but failed. So we go back to our hotel and took a rest before going out that night.

After pray, we decided to go to Chekodok Reggae located just in front of our hotel. I can say that this place is suitable for people that are looking for a lay back place and decided to have fun. Their decoration I must say, mostly D.I.Y.

The wall 1

The wall 2

Le Bob Marley

Reggae Pizza 

Chicken lasagna 

The buddies yang takkan berpisah. seperti seluar ketat dan kaki gemuk.

Chekodok Reggae 1

Chekodok Reggae 2

After the reggae music and dishes, we headed to The Thumbs cafe. Unfortunately, it's full house. So how  about we try the cafe next door, Karat cafe. They renovated an old house with a lot of antiques and valuable decoration such as old oven, old plate set and many more.

Like the old grandma house. 

Ais kacang everyone?

Rasa dia macam gulai sikit. 

Muka jelaga 

I love typewriter

Dapat tangkap gambar depan kafe jela sebab ramai sangat kat dalam

Part 2 will be released soon.Until then, enjoy this post!

Picture credit to myself,Hafawa,Anafaryana, Norzihan and Safirah.

Untuk Laki-Laki yang Tidak Pernah Putus Asa Menidurkanku Dengan Nyaman

Ada masa-masanya aku kecundang di balik tabir hidup.

Aku mengeluh. Memberontak. Meratapi pemergian sesuatu yang tidak selamanya kekal. Dan laki-laki itu, 24 tahun tidak pernah sekalipun berhenti menyayangi dan menenangkan.

Dia, laki-laki itu jarang sekali menuturkan ucap kata rindu dan sayang. Namun kau lihat dari bahasa tubuh dan kesanggupannya, itu kata-katanya yang dipamerkan.

Usai meniti usia manis-manis, dia berusaha keras memberi segala keringat dan tulang belulang diratah kejam untuk aku dan gadis kesayangannya yang lain.  Masih tenang dalam mata dan tuturnya, menidakkan segala undangan jahat dan menikam.

Apa kau tidak pernah marah sama laki-laki ini?

Ujarku, bohonglah jika tidak. Marah dan kecewa kadang-kala menyisir diam-diam.

Tetapi itu sayang, tidak terbanding sama ketabahannya memendam rasa kecewa saat aku melebihkan susuk gagah yang lain. Saat dia memaafkan dan memeluk sambil berdoa gembira aku pulang ke sisinya.

Saat ini, sudah ramai laki-laki singgah di hati dan pembaringan kalamku. Ada yang mahu kekal di situ selamanya, ada yang menarik diri dan berlalu pergi. Laki-laki ini, yang mungkin menangis syahdu saat aku dilahirkan, masih di situ. Tidak berganjak walau dia tahu batinnya pasti patah. Semenjak itu, tertera pada janjiku untuk sentiasa dekat dengannya. Walau apapun ranjau. Atau susuk tampan dan gagah yang sentiasa meliar di hadapanku.

Selamat menyambut hari mengenang jasamu. Selamat Hari Bapa.

Laki - lakiku berwajah sugul dan riaknya tertera pada parut di lengan kiriku

Aku sering menginginkan namamu. Menyerumu dengan rasa paling agung. Melihat kau berjalan dengan penuh rumit. Memegang bayang tubuhmu dengan teruja. 

Kadang - kala, aku melalui tempat beradumu. Mengintai - intai di balik rona warna ungu bangunan. Mengira - ngira detik kau akan menjengahkan kepala melihat ke luar. Tempat kau bergelak ketawa, sengaja aku lewati. Tapi aku cukup segan. Mana tahu, waktu itu kau sedang enak menikmati makanan bersama gadismu. Aku tidak ingin tahu namun sering perasaan pedih itu muncul.

Ada sesetengah masa, aku berhenti mengambil peduli. Aku meyakinkan diriku ini bukan selama - lamanya cinta. Ini hanya lintasan perasaan yang terkilan di bawah rombakan angin kumulonimbus. Ada juga detik aku sedang berjogging, lirikan matamu berdesup melintas. Meronta - ronta ingin menyakitiku. Sayang, aku lelah.

Kataku pada jantung berdegup dan hati yang sedang sibuk bekerja dalam tubuhku, pertahankanlah dirimu. Aku kadang tidak langsung mampu menduga kebahagiaan organku. Apakah pada saat aku terlupa akanmu, atau saat kau bisa membalas pesanan ringkas?. Atau sebenarnya, aku ditipu oleh cecair di dalam otakku. 

Laki - lakiku yang kini telah menjadi miliknya, kau sebenarnya sedang merasakan apa? Kau bahagia dengan gadis jinjangmu?. pastinya ya bukan. Duhai laki - lakiku beraut wajah panjang dan bermata kecil, aku tidak bahagia melihat kau bahagia. Malah aku berduka seduka dukanya. Aku kadangkala berdoa yang bukan - bukan. Kemudian, aku tersedar. Kesakitanku hanya kecil dibandingkan dirimu. Dan aku, tidak selayaknya menghentikan senyuman penuh ghairahmu. 

Sebesar daun markisar yang singgah di telapakku, sehangat mana aku menginginkan namamu, sejauh itu juga kau tidak mampu kembali.

Gadismu Rona Jingga

Mungkin

Mungkin gadismu

sehelai daun maple

Rona mata mencengkam jiwamu

berdenyut

jiwa luruh

mungkin

gadismu

seulas bawang merah

manja nan pedih

melingkar

di seluruh urat darahmu

mungkin sayang

gadismu

sebetulnya bukan aku.

A part when I am stronger than I've been before - 2014

Assalamualaikum. Sudah menginjak hampir hari ketiga 2015 dan masih terkedek - kedek tulis post pasal 2014. I ended my 2014 with a very sad event. My great - grandmother past away on 30 December. May Allah bless you grandma. 

Tahun ini tahun akhir di Universiti Malaya. How time flies. Rasa sekejap sangat dari zaman baru lepas poli, zaman bahagia bercinta, depression lepas break up, musim bangkit balik, final year project, zaman transform jadi gemuk. Too many things and too little time. 

Tahun ini juga Alhamdulillah tercapai hasrat untuk jadi penulis dalam buku yang dipublish dan dijual di kedai. Terima kasih untuk Buku Hitam Press yang beri peluang dan walaupun selalu langgar deadline tapi bos selalu sabar( dalam marah dan bengang). Terima kasih bos. But Tanpa Nama tak pernah dilupakan sebab kolektif ni la yang banyak bagi semangat dan panduan untuk menulis. Gilakata, geng baru yang tak pernah sunyi dalam group, after all, we are family. 

Kalau terjumpa kat MPH, jangan lupa beli Berat Sebelah Kiri dan Tanah Tumpah Darah. Thanks.

Tahun ni, struggle untuk Final Year Project a.k.a. FYP. Terima kasih untuk semua responden dan kawan - kawan yang tolong dan Dr Fauziah, jasamu dikenang.

Hari Pembentangan Poster FYP

This year highlighted the transformation of my 2 bestfriends from 'Cik' to 'Puan'. Alysa, kawan yang masa form 1 sampai form 3 pergi sekolah sama - sama, dah nikah pertengahan tahun. Tak pasal-pasal jadi bridesmaid. Eceh. Support la kawan, nak kasi warna - warni sikit wedding. Lepas tu, Eton (Zatul) my teman gaduh, teman luah perasaan, teman gi dating dari bf zaman sekolah sampai bf zaman poli. Yang dia ni tiba - tiba je kata nak kahwin. Tanjat mak dengar. Apepun, majlis dia yang tak disangka ni berjalan lancar walaupun banyak sangat benda kena settle. Ye la, kahwin tak rancang sangat. Tiba - tiba je Boya (laki dia sekarang) ajak kahwin. 

Hari wedding Lysa. Nampak tak cute kan kitorang. haha.

Eton's wedding. Masa nikah kitorang dah jadi bridesmaid.

Actually, ramai je lagi kawan yang dah kahwin tahun ni. Tak terkira jemputan. Kawan Teknik yang tidur sebelah dalam dorm selama 2 tahun pun dah selamat bernikah awal disember. Termasuk Leyka lagi. I try datang semua semua wedding korang sebenarnya tapi kalau ada yang I tak ada tu maksudnya tak sempat la tu ye. Semoga Allah merahmati perkahwinan u'all and harap Allah dapat bagi jodoh yang terbaik untuk I and teman - teman yang masih single atau single but not available. 

Forgot to tell, tahun ni pun kena pergi Li. Cerita Li pun boleh buat nangis jugak sebab penat sangat cari company. Alhamdulillah, JPSPN (Jabatan Pengurusan Sisa Pepejal Negara) terima I and Azrul (thanks to Azrul, dia yang suggest tempat LI yang dia dapat so berdua la kitorang together kat Putrajaya sampai hari - hari kena gosip). Terjumpa lah dua tiga orang gila nama Atul, Amirah, Yus, Suha and Qayi(aku tak tahu eja nama dia). Budak - budak praktikal ni la menggembirakan hati dekat tempat intern. Temaasuk la bos, Encik Nasir yang banyak tolong. 

Hari terakhir intern. How I miss you all. Azrul tak la sebab hari - hari jumpa kat kelas. Bosan haha.

Budak - budak gila suka makan setiap kali ada open office (time tu kan raya)

As for my study, tahun ni banyak gila menjelajah Malaysia. Dari tempat yang ramai orang sampai la yang paling sunyi jin pun taknak datang. Melaka, Ledang, Bukit Fraser, hutan mana - mana entah, pulau yang orang gerun nak datang, almost semua kitoang pergi. Lynas la paling epik sekali. Ye la, semua orang taknak pergi, kitorang excited tak takut kena radiation ke apa. 

SPAS Club juga bergerak aktif bawah pimpinan She Mei. She's a real leader. Sampai event kami dapat masuk Harian Metro and NST sebab promotion. Unexpected but feel so wow. 

Tahun ni tahun akhir masuk Feseni. Acara wajib : Boria. Tahun ketiga ni jugak aunty datang with her husband, Natrah pun ada dengan Zaid and Nadzmi. Feeling blessed sebab tak sangka diorang nak jugak tengok event i yang tak seberapa tu. Hikhik. Thanks. 

 (takde gambar pasal laptop rosak, ni pun amik mana yang ada je).

Starting this year, me and my aunty getting serious in our business. Shawl, dress, you name it, we will try provided for you. ceh. Boleh la terjah instagram @needlecoutureyuntouch kalau nak tengok produk/servis kami. 

Tahun 2014 adalah tahun tragedi untuk Malaysia dengan kapal terbang hilang, banjir besar, kapal terbang kena tembak dan banyak lagi tragedi. Memang sedih but life must go on. We cannot promise anything in 2015 but we are gonna strive for the best. 

For those that I hurt, please forgive me as I'm not perfect. For those that hurt me, no heart feeling. Because I know kadang - kala kita tak sengaja. Please move on and have a good life. 

Thank you. 

There's nothing here to wave and to say goodbye

Kita tidak berjalan 
semata - mata memerhatikan kau
Nil tidak akan mampu tiba
tanpa aku di sisinya

kau tidak melambai gembira
kau tidak berteriak riang
kau malah duduk diam di hadapan
mengelap bibirmu yang kotor
dengan tisu putih

aku dengar
aku tahu pasti
kau tidak menggilapnya untukku
kau menyimpannnya
untuk di seberang sana

That's how you told me about her. 

I'm not all about that bass like seriously

As this time, I really need to share this in my wrecking blog. From Thought Catalog.

10 Ways To Survive A Breakup Without Committing Social Suicide

1. Stop posting updates about your feelings on Facebook/Twitter/IG.

Everyone saw your relationship status change. But they didn’t know how bad it was until you started over-sharing. Can’t get out of bed in the morning? Eating your feelings from an industrial-sized Nutella? Fine, just don’t announce it on social media. All of your 700 friends do not need to witness what your rock bottom looks like.

2. Tell yourself that it’s probably for the better.

Even if you got blind-sided. Even if you’re packing up your apartment and tearing apart the life that you once had together. You are no longer dating your ex because that person is not the right one for you. Luckily, there are billions of fish in the sea. Breathe in, breathe out, grow strong.

3. Get on a dating app. Immediately.

You don’t even have to talk to anyone on there. Just make a profile and browse through the thousands of other people in your area looking for someone just like you. You are not alone. You are very far from alone. And there is always someone worse off than you in this dating ocean.

4. Stop taking your best friend for granted.

Yes, your best friend is your rock and truest companion. But they have their own life and problems, too. If every time that you text, call, or come in contact with your best friend is a self-wallowing session about your feelings, it’s time to stop. Your negativity is bringing your best friend down.

5. Get a journal or make a “feelings” folder on your desktop.

Then put all of your deepest, saddest, loneliest feelings in there. In these desperate times, there are things that you might think about yourself that even your best friend shouldn’t hear. And in the future, when you get your self-confidence back, you’ll be happy that you didn’t say these things out loud to anyone

6. Stop talking about your ex to your half-friends.

Everyone in your social circle politely listened and offered advice when your break up was fresh. And then they moved on with their lives. If you’re still asking them to listen to you mourn your relationship weeks or months later, your half-friends will stop inviting you places. No one wants to spend a Friday night getting rained on by the giant storm cloud that’s picked up residence over your head

7. Do not share intimate details about your break up with your co-workers.

Do not have a break down in front of your co-workers. Do not come into work looking like a hot mess. If you must cry, go to the Starbucks bathroom down the block. Your co-worker listening to you disintegrate today might be your manager next year or the person who reports to you on a new project five months from now. Don’t let your breakup destroy your employee file, and don’t make it awkward for your future work self.

8. Write out a pocket-sized list of your best qualities or keep one on your phone.

Put at least 10 things on it. Take it out every time you feel down or bad about yourself. Read the list. Put it away. Breathe in again, breathe out. Feel yourself growing stronger. If you have a hard time thinking of 10 things, ask your best friend.

9. Make an action plan.

You’ve been grieving for days or weeks. Now it’s time for an action plan because your life needs to move forward. What to do? Where to start? Well, you’re single so the world is your oyster. Make a list of the things that’ll push your life in a positive direction. Clean out your closet? Rotate the furniture in your apartment? Sign up for kickboxing? Whatever rocks your boat. Now is the time to start doing that thing you always wanted to do.

10. Realize your inner cool.

Everyone has it. There’s probably someone stalking your profile right now wishing they could muster up the courage to ask you out. You’re cool. You’re alive and fun. You just dodged the bullet. Put on that favorite pair of shoes or thing you like most in the world and saunter down the street. Feel the sun on your face. Smile.