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2017-01-14

2017 - Where You Heartbeat Was Fast and Cause You to Fly


2016.

I don't feel like myself during this year. In fact, I've never been myself for the past few years. There were hatred, anxious and love within the time zone. I believed 2016 sunk me into a shocking reality. The only hope that I had was dream. 

In the middle of the year, i felt empty. The one that I never had before. Like I was unable to breathe and suffocated. I used to it before but this feeling seems heavier. That's when I'm start searching for distraction. In order to get rid of my depression.

This new distraction consists of 'namja'. Would love to call them 'namja-chinggu' but it seems impossible. I always come back and forth to them. INFINITE shined me up with 'The Eye'. This love may sounds pathetic but that's the only thing to keep me alive. Thanks to them that I forgot all my sadness and teach me the other side of the world. 

My dear friends found their happiness throughout this year. While for me,I found the end of my confusion towards N. I gotta admit, that was the hardest but it felt a burden was lifted. I 'lost' two person during those time. And the atmosphere was never be the same again.

Thank you to those that cheer up my 2016 and not to forget to those who turns it upside down. 

And please, pray for me and baby Lee Ho Won aka Hoya to be together and happily ever after.












Hoya oppa, saranghae.


2016-10-27

Basically Normal, Just A White Confession That My Ears Turns Into A Pair of Rabbit Ears.



Baby, you are secretly creeping into this hole. This is non other than having an apocalypse syndrome. I've told them sooner or later you will come. You never hit anybody. You are a good boy. Did they ask for your forgiveness? That was just rude isn't. Not having conversation with people and being alone in the darkness.

I've been wanting to tell everyone that I've change my ears. It was a complicated procedure but yes, it's worth it. Now,my rabbit ears are hiding safely under my scarf. They are extremely excited to know that you've come. Does it sounds you are valuable thing or I can say prize to us?

Black hole never have any emotion. I saw once my father pull his beloved goat out from it. See, they show insanity and perfect love to meat. Dear, I'm trapped in the big hugs and love from any directions. You lead me to an enormous love and sweet candy. Not to mention an urge to replace my ear accessories. 

Oh my baby, don't ever jump upon me or everything will be ruin.