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I write a lot. Every seconds, every hours, every day, every month. But I realize you won't come back.

2016-10-27

Basically Normal, Just A White Confession That My Ears Turns Into A Pair of Rabbit Ears.



Baby, you are secretly creeping into this hole. This is non other than having an apocalypse syndrome. I've told them sooner or later you will come. You never hit anybody. You are a good boy. Did they ask for your forgiveness? That was just rude isn't. Not having conversation with people and being alone in the darkness.

I've been wanting to tell everyone that I've change my ears. It was a complicated procedure but yes, it's worth it. Now,my rabbit ears are hiding safely under my scarf. They are extremely excited to know that you've come. Does it sounds you are valuable thing or I can say prize to us?

Black hole never have any emotion. I saw once my father pull his beloved goat out from it. See, they show insanity and perfect love to meat. Dear, I'm trapped in the big hugs and love from any directions. You lead me to an enormous love and sweet candy. Not to mention an urge to replace my ear accessories. 

Oh my baby, don't ever jump upon me or everything will be ruin.









2016-05-02

Does February March, but April May.


I've never got a chance to prepare any farewell speech to April. Probably because April sounds fool and gloom. 

April taught me to wait. To salvage and reserve myself. In order to keep alive and to find happiness. Sometimes all you have to do is faking a happiness in order to find one.

I know I keep comparing my own life to others. To be grateful for what I have now is the main ingredients for me to feel safe. 

So, should I apologize or confess my love?









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2016-04-18

Ada Riak Luka Pada Hening Kata-Katamu


Pada malam-malam kita bersama, adakalanya aku terlihat selaut ribut di wajahmu. Betapa debu yang dibawa angin kadangkala menyaksikan perbalahan dan kesepian. 

Semua kata-katamu telah ku simpan rapi. Akan kau temui sisipannya di balik daun jambu hadapan rumah, di dalam cawan kegemaranmu ataupun di dalam kocek seluarmu. Akan jua kau temui seberkas amarah yang kadang-kala sempat ku tangkap waktu kau lagi melepaskannya.

Ketahuilah sayang, aku tidah pernah melupakan segala macam apa yang telah kau luahkan,yang kau tangiskan mahupun yang kau tawakan. Aku sentiasa sedia memaafkan dengan sebalang kaca untuk kekal menangkap kata-katamu yang hening lagi pilu.  

2016-03-30

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Aku sering percaya kau masih menyayangi aku seperti dulu. Dahulu yang mengajar kita erti kepedasan sambal kicap, keanehan lengkuk di badan siput dan segala kekotoran menyelubungi bangunan yang kita lalui. 

Peliknya,kita masih berhubung menyapa berita dan berterus-terang mengenai kehidupan masing-masing. Tidak rancak namun bual bicara masih kedengaran lucu. 

Hari ini,baumu hilang. Getarnya separa ada. Aku membawamu menyusur nyonya-nyonya rugged, kekasih dilamar nafsu dan alatan elektrik menari gembira dipegang orang. 

Satu yang ku terasa janggal. Kau tidak ingin menatap mataku dalam-dalam. Kau kiranya enggan. Tiga tahun mengajar engkau, laki-lakiku  berjambang kekar untuk berhenti mencintai. 

Terima kasih untuk sorotan dan lambaian di eskalator. Selamat engkau pulang dan mogalah berbahagia.